[ "Until he was through with me"? This guy sounds like a dick. Odin frowns and privately decides he doesn't like him. ]
It just sounds like... you were ported in during a rough moment. You've had a lot of time away from him, since then, to dwell on negativity, to find reasons to spiral. To find circumstantial evidence about why he didn't love you, and use them as proof for your argument towards why he left the way he did.
He danced with you. Where anyone could see. That was real. Someone who felt resistant to the thought two men being together in a romantic capacity wouldn't have made a gesture like that - not one that had so much weight. He left to do something bigger than himself because you believed in him and gave him the courage to forge ahead with it.
I don't know. It would be easy to say it doesn't mean much, given that he isn't here. But. Like I said - it seems defeatist.
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It just sounds like... you were ported in during a rough moment. You've had a lot of time away from him, since then, to dwell on negativity, to find reasons to spiral. To find circumstantial evidence about why he didn't love you, and use them as proof for your argument towards why he left the way he did.
He danced with you. Where anyone could see. That was real. Someone who felt resistant to the thought two men being together in a romantic capacity wouldn't have made a gesture like that - not one that had so much weight. He left to do something bigger than himself because you believed in him and gave him the courage to forge ahead with it.
I don't know. It would be easy to say it doesn't mean much, given that he isn't here. But. Like I said - it seems defeatist.