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[dreadinquisitor]

He's gotten better with his communicator - a part of him even likes it! He'll probably get back to you, if you leave him a message.

Conversely, do it the old fashioned way. He'll definitely get back to you.

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[shadowglitter]

[ An opportunity to bring up Poe. He skates past it, and in his haste to avoid it, pushes himself over the edge of asking questions he might not have the right to ask. ]

Did he say he didn't love you when he told you not to go with him? Or - that your love for him wasn't enough?

[dreadinquisitor]

[There's another long pause. He's played the conversation back in his own head so many times... and the clearest part anymore, still, is the way Dorian had smiled. How determined he'd been - how excited - as Maxwell had felt himself falling, falling....]

He said he regretted it, but it had to be that way.



Maybe because I'm not a mage, or maybe if I'd been from Tevintar and were more like

them.



Whatever the reason, it was ending. I could not be hurt by it, believe me I would. I wish I could be only supportive of him and not

want for more than I deserve.

[shadowglitter]

I see...

I don't know enough about your world to understand, exactly, what it is the two of you went through, and I don't - I don't know enough about your time together to conclusively guess at his motivations, and I don't-- I don't know what the two of you said, as he left. What your last words to each other were. But.

It sounds-- defeatist. I think. To assume he never loved you, or to assume his departure was an "ending". If he's putting you aside for something bigger than the both of you - you're allowed to feel shaken by that, but it says nothing about what you "deserve" if he has to go. All it says is that... that he has to do whatever it is you encouraged him to do. On his own, as a man.

Did he say... things were over between the both of you? For good?

[dreadinquisitor]

[Maxwell takes a breath and forces himself to answer. The more Odin speaks, the more Maxwell questions and wonders if maybe there had been chance... the more it hurts, every time he has to tell himself that whatever else, Dorian would be leaving.

That Dorian wasn't here. And however it turned out, he'd never see him again.]

He said after Corypheus was defeated he would leave. That it was important he stay until that was done.

After the battle, just before I was taken, he said he would stay until he was through with me.

[shadowglitter]

[ "Until he was through with me"? This guy sounds like a dick. Odin frowns and privately decides he doesn't like him. ]

It just sounds like... you were ported in during a rough moment. You've had a lot of time away from him, since then, to dwell on negativity, to find reasons to spiral. To find circumstantial evidence about why he didn't love you, and use them as proof for your argument towards why he left the way he did.

He danced with you. Where anyone could see. That was real. Someone who felt resistant to the thought two men being together in a romantic capacity wouldn't have made a gesture like that - not one that had so much weight. He left to do something bigger than himself because you believed in him and gave him the courage to forge ahead with it.

I don't know. It would be easy to say it doesn't mean much, given that he isn't here. But. Like I said - it seems defeatist.

[dreadinquisitor]

[He starts several messages, erases them. Finally he settles on a simple truth.]

Hearing you say it... you make me want to hope.

[shadowglitter]

Yeah? Well... there's nothing wrong with hope.

If I were in your shoes, I'd be holding on. That's all.
There's no point in suffering in silence, assuming the worst.
Keep yourself open to a future where things might be okay.
I got faith, man. It'll all work out.

[dreadinquisitor]

[As he reads the latest messages, he feels a druffalo stomp into the room - a druffalo with perfect hair - but he says nothing about it. They had talked about it, and Odin had promised he wouldn't interfere with it's green horizon.

That was enough.]

And if not, I suppose I'm prepared.


Well, now, that you've listened to me whine and cry for an hour....

[shadowglitter]

[ Owain's gonna screw up one of these days and shoot that druffalo soooooooo dang dead. ]

I don't mind.
We're friends, right?
I want to be here for you when things get rough. I want to know everything about you.
So.
Yeah.
Sorry if I crossed any lines. I really tried not to.

We met when I was pretty much broken over Poe, dude. My whine and cry surplus is insurmountable.

[dreadinquisitor]

I should hope so. I usually manage to refrain from pouring my troubles out on strangers.

You didn't. If I hadn't wanted you to know about it, I wouldn't have mentioned it to start with.

And I think it helped. At least a little. Just talking about it. I haven't really with anyone. Not in such detail.

[shadowglitter]

I'm glad you felt comfortable enough to talk to me, then. This is too much of a burden for you to carry on your own, I think.
I'm good at sharing burdens, so.
I'm here. At any time.

If he ever shows up - let me know, yeah? We'll go for a drink and figure out how to handle whatever happens together.
I've got your back.

[dreadinquisitor]

[There was a lot he could say to that. 'I think it would have happened by now, if were going to.' 'I still look, every day.'

Instead, he keeps it simple.]

He ever does, you'll be one of the first to know.

And that goes both ways, Odin. If you ever need to talk, or just need to do something, I'll be there.